Starting the Journey

4 07 2010

I had WAY too much time to myself today, something I rarely get. So, I was reading through some single mommy blogs. Their blogging inspired me to start one. So here I am…

Definition of TREK: a journey on foot, sometimes a long and difficult journey.

Is motherhood really any different than trekking? It’s the most amazing journey in the world and it never ends, but sometimes you run into some obstacles along the trek. For me those obstacles are being a single mom and a teenager. You can’t let those obstacles keep you from moving along in your journey. The trek of motherhood isn’t about the destination, it’s about the journey. What is the destination in motherhood? I don’t know the answer to that, but I know the little things along the journey make the journey worth taking… the first smile and hearing your child call you ‘mama’ for the first time.

The past two years have been a whirlwind of a crazy journey. It started with an unexpected pregnancy at 16, leaving home, finding an apartment, and also finding myself along the way. Just when I was starting to figure things out, my baby came (almost eight weeks early).  Young, alone, and scared with this tiny miracle that couldn’t even breathe on his own. There were a few friends and family there with me when he was born, but then they all went home. That night alone in the hospital room I realized I was in this journey alone. It was just me and this tiny blessing in disguise.

The weeks that followed were the most painful and joyful weeks of my journey so far. My son stayed in the NICU for almost a month and that truly tested my strength.  Today my son is a healthy almost one and a half year old and I am a happy 18 year old single mommy. At times it’s hard and lonely, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. My son had brought me closer to God and helped me understand the meaning of life. Cheesy, but true. It’s the little moments that make life big and no matter how hard things you just have to keep trekking onward to brighter days.

This little guy turned my life around and gives me the strength to make it through anything.




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